tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-90896162024-03-13T11:30:00.949-04:00Land Mammalain't no sin to be glad you're aliveAnne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.comBlogger740125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-189252285406639972012-08-25T23:39:00.006-04:002012-08-25T23:39:57.976-04:00Forwarding OrdersThis blog has moved! Or changed. Or metamorphosed, or .. well, whatever the proper terminology, I've got a new humble abode online. For further adventures in bloggity-blogdom, as well as other webby sorts of stuff, go visit <a href="http://annehaines.wordpress.com/">http://annehaines.wordpress.com </a>(if you're looking for the blog, click on where it says "blog").<br />
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I may import all the posts from this blog over to that one, or more likely, I may not. I'm going to leave this blog here at least for now, but go over there if you want to find me. (And there is more "there" there - videos! poem links! et cetera!)<br />
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I'll be moving the links from the blogroll here over to the links page there - and hopefully starting to catch up on reading a bunch of great blogs I haven't paid enough attention to lately, as well.<br />
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<br />Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-90162513592389391592011-09-13T23:53:00.004-04:002011-09-14T00:38:46.260-04:00And Know This PlaceOne foot in front of the other. Determined not to abandon this blog! It has brought me good things in the past - new poets discovered, friendships formed (that's the best part). The next thing I need to do is to start catching up on all y'all: friends, bloggers I don't know personally but like to follow - I have been missing out on a lot. Just call me the Prodigal Blogger.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcfZHruuqo8TN38JLpSUue9zJKiduJCOOGUArqXAnPdY8owWT0J5S639iZrQMyp2SAAxbyXk9l0LIFsaEVtNq9kXqKK1kbJ522uft3q7MMq95sCZAWAOfzTEZZE0fDioiJ4tVN/s1600/aktp.jpg"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 178px; height: 250px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcfZHruuqo8TN38JLpSUue9zJKiduJCOOGUArqXAnPdY8owWT0J5S639iZrQMyp2SAAxbyXk9l0LIFsaEVtNq9kXqKK1kbJ522uft3q7MMq95sCZAWAOfzTEZZE0fDioiJ4tVN/s320/aktp.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5652061116434962002" border="0" /></a>But since it got late and I'm tired, this is just a quickie bit of shameless self-promotion, although it's a bit of others-promotion as well! There's a gorgeous new anthology in town - <a href="http://shop.indianahistory.org/SelectSKU.aspx?skuid=1009638">And Know This Place: Poetry of Indiana</a>, published by the Indiana Historical Society Press, edited by Jenny Kander and C.E. Greer. In the works for several years, this big (nearly 400 pages) volume includes Hoosier poets past and present, everyone from James Whitcomb Riley to Ruth Stone to Etheridge Knight to, well, yours truly. There is even a cool geographical index in the back, with a map of Indiana so you can find the places mentioned in the poems and the birthplaces of those poets who were actually born in the state.<br /><br />The physical book itself (yes, this matters) is a hardcover - solid, hefty, with paper that feels good to the hand, well-chosen typography, and enough white space on the page to make the poems a pleasure to read. Bet you anything you will find some old friends here, perhaps some poets you didn't realize had an Indiana connection, as well as terrific new poets you hadn't encountered before. The poems aren't all "about" Indiana though many of them do evoke a strong sense of place; the foreword by Roger Mitchell puts this balance of inner and outer landscape in perspective as well as outlining a bit of Hoosier poetry history. It's an anthology I am very proud to be a small part of, and one I'll be digging into for quite a while.<br /><br />And people, this puppy is a bargain - the list price is only $24.95. You can order it <a href="http://shop.indianahistory.org/SelectSKU.aspx?skuid=1009638">via the Indiana Historical Society's gift shop</a>, or via the usual Barnazon & Amanoble megastores.<br /><br />(Anyone out there working on a syllabus for a "poetry of place" type class or anything about Midwestern literature? This would be a fantastic title to include!)Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-58492810856524649382011-09-10T20:27:00.003-04:002011-09-10T20:52:49.646-04:009/10/01Yeah, I'm still here. Slowly easing my way back into poetry, and since this is supposed to be the blog in which I talk about mostly poetry/writing-related stuff, I think maybe I'll be easing my way back into blogging too. I hope so - I do miss it, and the community I found via blogging.<br /><br />I've had a couple of readings lately - a featured spot in the Brick Street Poetry Series up in Zionsville, IN (really fun), and a spot on the Spoken Word Stage at the 4th Street Festival of Arts & Crafts last weekend (fun, but it was 102 degrees and the "stage" was in the middle of the street in full sun, which meant only the truly dedicated stayed to listen). I'll write a post soon about the new anthology that's just come out, <a href="http://shop.indianahistory.org/SelectSKU.aspx?skuid=1009638">And Know This Place: Poetry of Indiana</a> (it's really, really lovely). That's about all the poetry news 'round here though.<br /><br />I've about had it with the media blathering on about the tenth anniversary of 9/11/01. There's little new to be said, I suspect, though if it can be cathartic or healing for some people, then I'm glad for them. Instead of adding to the 9/11 blather, I'm going to post my poem about 9/10, and that desire we all have when something terrible happens to go back to the moment before and hold on for dear life. The sestina seemed like an appropriate form for this one, since you keep going back to the same end words and using them over and over again, holding on to them. (Sorry 'bout the small font. I'm trying to keep the lines from breaking all over the place. If you have trouble reading it, you can enlarge the text in most browsers by hitting control-+ on Windows machines; I'm sure there is a Mac equivalent...)<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br />9/10/01: Sestina</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">It was the day before.<br />I rode six miles out to sea to look for whales.<br />As we drifted nearly out of sight of land<br />we spied a small whale in the distance<br />alongside a larger whale, its mother, diving, lifting flukes.<br />As we approached the calf began to breach.<br /><br />The morning sun struck the back of the calf, shining, as it continued to breach.<br />The boat drew closer. I’d never been so close before.<br />So often, as the boat pulled near, a whale would dive with one last thrust of flukes<br />but the morning of September 10 was a good one for watching whales.<br />The seas were calm, Provincetown’s monument familiar in the distance –<br />a reassuring glimpse of home, of land.<br /><br />That small whale buoyed me as I flew home that night, my plane the last to land.<br />I could still feel waves rocking me, a breach<br />in the solid wall of my landlocked life. Traveling such a distance<br />alone – something I hadn’t dared before –<br />felt as brave as those whales,<br />as graceful as the lifting of flukes.<br /><br />I’d bought a silver necklace shaped like flukes.<br />I clutched it like an amulet all the next day as news broke about “war in our own land.”<br />Provincetown seemed a lifetime ago, the sea, the joy, the whales.<br />Like everyone I stood stunned, complacency utterly breached.<br />What to say? How to respond? All the words I’d used before<br />fell away silent into the distance.<br /><br />All I wanted was to return to that distance,<br />sun glistening on morning seas, the curve of flukes.<br />I held on so hard to <span style="font-style: italic;">before</span>.<br />As events unfolded I felt lost in my own land,<br />each day’s news trumpeting some new security breach.<br />But somewhere out to sea there are still whales.<br /><br />Part of me stayed out there with those whales,<br />the calf leaping into air, others in the distance,<br />the way he hung there for a moment mid-breach,<br />pure bone and muscle, fin and fluke.<br />I want it not to matter, what happens on distant land.<br />Somewhere it is always the day before.<br /><br />What did I know, before I saw whales?<br />I was a land mammal dreaming of the distance.<br />Now I clutch the grace of flukes, the animal exuberance of the breach.<br /><br />-Anne Haines<br />published in <span style="font-style: italic;">Breach </span>(Finishing Line Press, 2008)</span>Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-66282008433308028152011-06-22T00:52:00.004-04:002011-06-22T01:30:50.509-04:00Chasing AngelsMany thanks to those who, privately or publicly, have said kind things about <a href="http://landmammal.blogspot.com/2011/06/teardrops-on-city.html">"Seventeen/Forty-Seven: Darkness & Magic"</a> which I posted the other day. I really don't normally post unpublished poems here, not so much because I'm afraid somebody will plagiarize them but because posting them publicly generally means they won't be considered for publication elsewhere. In this case, I think the work found its audience here - much more so than it would have in a literary journal or whatever. So, thanks. It means a lot to me.<br /><br />I wrote an elegy for Danny Federici when he died a few years ago (it's gotten some kind comments from editors but hasn't been published yet - maybe I'll post it here sometime). For those who may be unfamiliar, "Phantom Dan" played organ and accordion in the E Street Band, and he died of melanoma in 2008. I was unexpectedly shaken by his passing - in a very literal sense, as it turns out, because my part of Indiana experienced a rare earthquake in the predawn hours of the morning after Danny's death. (Yeah, that's in the poem.) More importantly, I was unexpectedly and deeply moved by the graceful way in which Bruce and the band dealt with his loss. They were mid-tour, and the first show following Danny's funeral has taken on legendary status in the Springsteen fan community - I wasn't there (though I will admit to having investigated plane fares before realizing it was completely impossible for me to go) but I've heard recordings of it, and it was both ferocious and tender, both raging and celebratory. <a href="http://brucespringsteen.net/news/index_danny.html">Springsteen's eulogy</a> was tremendously moving, as well. And Bruce has always written about how to cope with aging and death ("you're scared and you're thinking that maybe we ain't that young anymore" - he wrote that when he was what, twenty-three or something?) but some of his most recent work, like <a href="http://brucespringsteen.net/songs/KingdomOfDays.html">"Kingdom of Days"</a> and his song for Danny, <a href="http://brucespringsteen.net/songs/TheLastCarnival.html">"The Last Carnival," </a>tackles it with a grace and wisdom that moves me so deeply.<br /><br />I started thinking about the whole thing, and about what it meant to work with somebody in a creative situation (like in a band) for so many years - all one's adult life, really - to share all those experiences, from fighting and grubbing to work in smelly little clubs to touring worldwide, performing music that ultimately stirred millions of souls - and then to suffer that kind of loss. I started thinking about the legendary "brotherhood" of the E Street Band. It could all be a big act, you know. We fans love to believe in it; it's a fable, a wonderful story, and it means a lot to us. But they <span style="font-style: italic;">are </span>performers, these guys. It's a <span style="font-style: italic;">show</span>. And we know the image that's presented onstage (and in the media) is always, always, always at least partially a fictitious construction. (This goes for everyone with a public image to maintain. You don't think rockstars act like they do on stage 24/7, do you? Some of them try to, but it's a pretty safe bet that anyone who has friends that still speak to them after some years has given up and accepted that they can be a rockstar on stage but they had damn well better be a human being at home. And you <span style="font-style: italic;">know</span> Patti Scialfa would kick Bruce's butt if he came home and announced "It's Boss time!")<br /><br />Now, to be clear: I don't know anyone in the E Street Band personally. I've met Max Weinberg once, briefly, and he was very nice - but that's it. If it's all an act and they really can't stand each other offstage, or if they are jerks, I wouldn't know about it. I truly believe that it's not an act - I know enough people who know them at least somewhat, and have read & heard enough things about them over the years, to believe that the whole "brotherhood" thing is based on a deep truth. I've seen the way they look at one another onstage and I do not think any of them (Steven Van Zandt's stint on "The Sopranos" notwithstanding) is a good enough actor to fake what I see there. What's more, if Bruce Springsteen kicks puppies in his spare time, I neither need nor want to know about it. Guy writes songs like he does and gives shows like he does, he can do what he wants when I'm not looking. Even if the sentiment in songs like <a href="http://brucespringsteen.net/songs/LandOfHopeAndDreams.html">"Land of Hope and Dreams" </a>were fake for him, it's very real for me. And the image of him - and of the band - that I have in my heart makes my world a better place to live in. So, consider that your official disclaimer there.<br /><br />But I started thinking - what if you had a couple of bandmates who'd been together that long, and who had the whole Bruce-and-Stevie (or Clarence, but my character's a guitarist)/Mick-and-Keef "bromance" thing going on onstage, but for them it really was all an act, and they couldn't stand each other in real life? (Mind, this was before I read Keith Richards' autobiography where he says some not-very-nice things about Mr. Jagger. I thought I was <span style="font-style: italic;">making up</span> this story.) And furthermore… what if they couldn't stand each other in real life because they couldn't stand that the love they showed onstage really <span style="font-style: italic;">did</span> reflect something about their feelings for one another? Being afraid of one's feelings is one of those universal human things I can hook into and identify with, and wrestle with in poems. And then the characters jumped into my head and started talking to me, and since I can't write fiction worth a shit, I started writing poems.<br /><br />And it was the most fun I've ever had writing poems, I think. I had some poems about them being young and playing in shitty smelly clubs, and a bunch of "on the road" poems that I hope I got more or less right (never having been a touring musician myself, you see - any actual touring musicians reading this who'd like to read a few of them and offer feedback are warmly invited to do so). Oh, and then the guitarist starts liking the rockstar lifestyle a little too much and starts missing rehearsals or showing up too far under the influence to be any good. And the singer/protagonist fires his sorry ass and they stop speaking to one another for years and it's all very, very sad. (I was listening to <a href="http://brucespringsteen.net/songs/BobbyJean.html">"Bobby Jean"</a> and Nils Lofgren's <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iBq7XRa6uZM">"Keith Don't Go"</a> a lot while I was writing some of the poems in this part.) And then the protagonist finds out through the grapevine that the guitarist is terminally ill (hepatitis, I think, though it probably doesn't matter) and in the hospital, so there's a touching deathbed-reunion scene and then a death scene - my fiction-writer friends always talk about how it's really fun, in a twisted way, to kill off your characters and boy howdy, that is really true. And then the whole coming-to-terms-with-grief part of it, which lets me make the sweeping grand "THIS and THIS about HUMANITY" sermon poems I'm unfortunately so fond of (I think a lot of poets are, though, even if they won't admit it). And because it's poems, not fiction, I really haven't spoiled anything by giving y'all the plot. Really. :)<br /><br />So that's "Chasing Angels." Angels being, at first, the girls they think will pay attention to them if they become rockstars - there's always an angel or two in the front row for them to play to and fall in love with for the two hours that they are onstage, and the challenge of course is to win the audience over, to make the angels fall in love with them - and as the story unfolds, angels become something more problematic and complex.<br /><br />And I haven't been working on this manuscript for the past year or two, because I'd kind of lost heart with it - but it's time for me to return to it. Because I'm thinking so much about Clarence Clemons, and about the heart and soul of E Street, and about the heart and soul of all of us (see? more sermonizing - jeez, it's too bad I'm allergic to religion; I could've gone to minister school instead of library school). Because I'm back to feeling that how rock & roll affects us says something about who we are as human beings. Because I'm all too aware that you gotta say what you need to say before it's too late.<br /><br />Hopefully, you'll be hearing more.Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-77051494457047317182011-06-19T22:21:00.004-04:002011-06-19T23:21:33.184-04:00Gratitude and the FloodSo what happened for a lot of us last night was a 24-hour virtual wake for Clarence Clemons. I couldn't tear myself away from the tweets and posts and links that were pouring out from fans all over the world - ended up getting very little sleep last night, actually. Dave Lifton has <a href="http://www.wingsforwheels.net/?p=1679">a nice post about how social media has kept many of us connected</a>, over at his blog Wings for Wheels. It sort of wrapped up this evening when many of us agreed to play "Jungleland" - as loud as we could blast it - simultaneously, worldwide, at 6pm Eastern. This unleashed a torrent of tweets and a truly beautiful sense of connection. And, as one of my Twitter friends (I'm sorry that I've forgotten who) said - when it was over, the silence felt deafening.<br /><br />I have so many browser tabs open right now, and emails that I marked "unread" so I'd remember to come back to them, new Twitter followers I want to follow back, links and videos and essays and posts and outpourings of love. I don't know how I'm ever going to get to them all; this evening I had to step away from the immersion for a while and just watch the sunset.<br /><br />And what I want to say is, I am so grateful. It means so much to be a part of this community, to have people in my life who understand that what happened this weekend was much more than just something sad that happened to some celebrity. Like I said in my last post, the E Street Band has stood for something so vital to me and to many of us for so many years. We've lost something that has been a part of us for a very long time. And it makes us realize that eventually, we lose everything, utterly.<br /><br />Except for love.<br /><br />So two things tonight. One, I keep thinking about Clarence's family, close friends, his bandmates. If people like me who never even met the guy were so sad they couldn't sleep last night, imagine how bereft they are. I've lost family members, most of us have by the time we get to be middle-aged; it sucks. Sometimes there's a strange kind of elation in the first day or two, as condolences pour in and you feel loved and as you experience the kind of temporary clarity that comes from being absolutely certain about what is and isn't important in this world. Sometimes you're just fucking exhausted. Usually it's some stupid little thing that sends you over the edge and you just crash for a while - when my dad died one of those things was seeing somebody playing the bass, as he did, and remembering how his right hand looked walking up and down the strings and realizing I was never going to see that again. (Those stupid little things can keep popping up and biting you in the ass for years, too. When you least expect it.)<br /><br />Anyway, I keep thinking about his close loved ones, and I want to send love and spirit in their direction. I think about Bruce Springsteen, who spent the week by his dear friend's deathbed, and who is probably bereft and exhausted and also trying to write some kind of brilliant, comforting eulogy - and I know I can't just show up at his doorstep offering a hug and a casserole (anyway his security people would whisk me away for trying to poison him, which wouldn't be an unreasonable thing to charge me with considering my culinary prowess or lack thereof, but you can't just say "hey Boss, sorry about your friend, have a Lean Cuisine" now can you?) - we can't bring funeral casseroles, so what can we fans do for those who are hurting and grieving even harder than we are?<br /><br />We can do what we've been doing these past 24-plus hours, which is to send our love out there into the world. Thousands of us all over the world have been doing this - just look at Twitter! - and I want to say, look how much love Clarence Clemons brought into this world to provoke this flood of feelings, <span style="font-style: italic;">look how much love</span>.<br /><br />And since he's not here to keep bringing the love and the light, on all those stages and all those recordings where his huge spirit could reach millions - since he's not here, let's each of us just put a little more love out there into the world than we used to. We'll never fill the void left by his passing, especially not the musical void (and don't get me started on how sad I am to wake up in a world where I'll never again stand in the middle of a sweaty crowd punching the air while the Big Man wails out the "Jungleland" solo). But we can honor his lifelong work by bringing a little more love to each day. Just a little more than we did before.<br /><br />It starts ... NOW. Go.Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-84089860089888378952011-06-19T01:46:00.007-04:002011-06-19T04:09:25.756-04:00Teardrops on the city...I know. Long time no blog. I'm sorry.<br /><br />Tonight I'm here for reasons both sad and celebratory. You've probably heard by now that Clarence Clemons, who played saxophone in Bruce Springsteen's E Street Band, died Saturday evening a few days after suffering a massive stroke. ...Backtrack. "Played saxophone" doesn't even come close to describing what Clarence, the "Big Man," brought to the band. He was the heart and soul of all that was E Street. When he stepped onto the stage it was like a glorious sunrise. He had a smile that could light up an entire sold-out stadium all by itself, and a saxophone that followed that light with pure fire. And despite the fact that in his last years he was in near-constant pain, having had two hip replacements, two knee replacements, spinal surgery, and goodness knows what else, he still gave that beautiful smile and that music to the world.<br /><br />I remember the show in St. Louis in 2009 - the next to last show I saw on that last tour - I was in the pit, about three people back from the stage, in front of Clarence. I could tell that he was physically tired, you could see the strain in his face and the pain he clearly felt anytime he moved. But he still gave his all when he played and he still beamed out at the fans, made eye contact with us, appreciated us, flirted with the women up front. And when he played his solo in "Jungleland" I knew I was in church.<br /><br />Church is exactly what those shows were for me, especially in 2008-09 when I spent money I had no business spending and traveled around to shows in Indianapolis, Nashville (twice), St. Louis (twice), Kansas City, Denver, St. Paul, Chicago (twice), and Mansfield Mass (a two-night stand). Those shows meant the world to me and were the light that I held onto very tightly for a while as I went through (and am still going through) some difficult stuff.<br /><br />I'll never forget a night in May 2009 when, for the first time, I was lucky enough to be in the very front row of the pit. Steven Van Zandt gave me his guitar pick at the end of the night, and yes, this perfectly rational middle-aged woman turned into a giddy fangirl over a shared smile and a little bit of plastic. Then I found out the next morning that while I'd been waiting in line for the show, my mom had been diagnosed with breast cancer. A very minor form of it (and after treatment she is completely cancer-free now as far as we know) but still, it was my MOM, and CANCER, so it shook me pretty hard. I literally held on to that guitar pick, took it out and held it tightly in my hand some days to remind me of the joy and the love and the strength of spirit that I find, without fail, in the E Street Band and the E Street Nation.<br /><br />On so many dark nights over the past 35-plus years when I forgot how to believe in love, so many times it was the E Street Band that reminded me. Clarence Clemons, and his relationship (both the lifelong friendship & the musical partnership) with Bruce Springsteen, is in so many ways at the heart of what I love about E Street. There has been so much written about him, especially tonight - I won't try to replicate it; <a href="http://www.nj.com/news/index.ssf/2011/06/clarence_clemons_dies.html">the obituary at the New Jersey Star-Ledger</a> and <a href="http://www.backstreets.com/clarence/">the tribute at backstreets.com</a> are the best I've read so far. (We'll also be posting links over at <a href="http://blogs.wickedlocal.com/springsteen">Blogness on the Edge of Town</a>.) I am told that Bruce was at Clarence's side all week as he fought for his life in the hospital; I know he must be exhausted and bereft, but I hope that in his own inevitable dark nights to come, he is also able to hold on to that reminder of what is real and true.<br /><br />I said earlier that when Clarence played his "Jungleland" solo I knew I was in church. That may seem hyperbolic to some, but at those concerts I was part of a congregation of souls reaching for something higher and truer than our everyday lives, something to believe in, something to help us understand how to live up to our own ideals. And isn't that church?<br /><br />On that theme, I'm going to post a poem here. I don't usually post unpublished poems, but this seems like the time and place for this one. It's not specifically about Clarence, but it's about the band, about the "Darkness on the Edge of Town" and "Magic" tours and the two greatest rock & roll shows I have ever seen, thirty years apart. It's about the pact between performer and audience, a pact that I experience as nothing less than love. It is the essence of what is good in this world. It is what I hold on to during hard times. It <span style="font-style: italic;">is</span> love. And I send this out with love to Bruce and the band and the entire E Street family, and to the E Street Nation. May we hold on to our memories of the Big Man, his beautiful music and his beautiful smile and his great big heart, and may we know that this is holy, and may we always keep on singing.<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Seventeen/Forty-Seven: Darkness and Magic</span><br /><br />I. Seventeen, The Show<br />(Notre Dame, 9/9/1978)<br /><br />There is that moment just before<br />the lights go down, when the crowd<br />is murmuring feverishly, stamping and sweating<br />and I am twitching in my shitty seat<br />and the guy next to me lights up a doobie,<br />grins and offers me a toke, and I pass<br />it on to the friend I’m with<br />and I’m barely in my seat now, barely<br />in the real world of high<br />school and lousy cars and girls<br />who don’t understand a thing,<br />and I am so ready. I want this.<br />I count the guitars shining in their stands<br />on the far-off stage, watch some roadie run<br />over there to pluck the strings<br />one last time, <span style="font-style: italic;">Check Check</span> into the microphone<br />and I rub my thumb across the callused<br />fingertips of my left hand,<br />all those hours of burning<br />up and down the neck of my only<br />instrument, and I am so,<br />so ready. I nudge my friend<br />and grin, I catch the eye<br />of my neighbor with the doobie<br />and I grin. I gaze down at the stage<br />and at the girls in the very front<br />row in their tight jeans and their<br />brand-new tour t-shirts, and the crowd<br />is loud and eager, the stage is set<br />and ready, and I don’t know<br />how I can bear to wait even one<br />minute more: the whole arena feels<br />like it’s going to rise up<br />like some great spaceship, just rise<br />away from the ordinary earth and fly.<br /><br /><br />II. Communion, After All<br />(St. Louis, 8/23/2008)<br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-style: italic;">Bruce (to the audience): “Don’t you gotta be in church tomorrow?”</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Steve: “We’re <span style="font-weight: bold;">in </span>church.”</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Bruce: “What?”</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Steve: “We’re in church <span style="font-weight: bold;">now</span>.”</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"> -Milwaukee, 8/30/2008</span></span><br /><br />The number is drawn and I’ve missed the pit.<br />The toe I bashed two nights ago in Nashville<br />throbs inside my boot. I’m among strangers—<br />angels, yes, with shining faces, tramps who hold<br />to the same hymns I do, but on this gray<br />and dirty street, in this disconsolate line,<br />strangers still – and I am waiting. I’m losing<br />faith, a little bit, and then it rains.<br />I am small and middle-aged. Seventeen<br />was thirty years ago, and far away.<br />I close my eyes, pretend to believe the rain<br />is a blessing, is something sweet – and my tired feet<br />remember that night, remember holding tightly<br />to the hand of a friend and rushing the stage,<br />remember the light that spilled over me<br />when I leaped atop folding chairs and danced<br />as you played "Twist and Shout" and the arena<br />was practically airborne, your kind hands<br />lifting your guitar, the band all blaze and thunder.<br />I was seventeen and believed in everything.<br />Now I straighten my back as the rain lets up,<br />take a long breath, steady my heart.<br />Hours yet till showtime.<br /><br />And then there is waiting. And then<br />there is chaos and pushing and into the building<br />and I swear a pair of angels place tender hands<br />against my back, guide me into the arena. There is kindness<br />in the eyes of strangers, and a place against the rail.<br />There is the altar set with microphones<br />and the sweet choreography of lighting techs<br />ascending flimsy ladders. There is no place<br />on Earth or heaven I would rather be<br />than here, one last guitar check and chords<br />ring out across the room like waves<br />against the Jersey shore. I want to kneel.<br />I give myself to this.<br /><br />Then sudden darkness and that moment like no other.<br />Then all rock and roll breaks loose.<br /><br />Hours later, gratitude ringing in my ears,<br />you’re about to leave the stage. Then,<br />no: <span style="font-style: italic;">"We gotta do one for Sophie!</span>" And you lift<br />your guitar into "Twist and Shout"<br />and all I can say is a silent <span style="font-style: italic;">"Holy…"</span><br />as the light spills over me, over all<br />of us. I am seventeen and forty-seven. I am an angel<br />dancing in the flames. There is nothing<br />but this night, this gift. You close your eyes<br />and sing, and I close mine and sing:<br />if there are angels they are in<br />this pact between us, the promises<br />we are keeping at this moment.<br />It’s only music and it’s only the night<br />but we are alive here, loss and laughter<br />crowding the lines on our faces, and I know now<br />that this is holy: that we are here,<br />blaze and thunder, still singing.<br /><br />- Anne HainesAnne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-37044826799034442952011-01-22T19:47:00.003-05:002011-09-21T22:50:11.237-04:00We interrupt this blog...<div><p>...to bring you an important mesage. Well, important to me anyhow. My laptop kinda got bevirused with a nasty little Trojan backend thing (sounds dirty, huh? well, it IS, just not in the entertaining way). Working on a repair and wishing I were rich enough to say "gee, it's old and percrankety and its hard drive is almost full anyway, I'll just buy a new one." And yes, all my important files (including all of my writing and most, if not all, of the music & photos) were backed up.</p><p>Limping along with the smartphone and the slightly temperamental netbook; I'll respond to recent comments & post again just as soon as I can.</p><p>Meanwhile, if YOU haven't got everything on your computer good and backed up, I'm using my mom voice here: do it now!</p></div>Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-30936820109107848722011-01-16T23:36:00.003-05:002011-01-17T00:45:36.206-05:00Holding patternTrying to fight off a cold (I thing de code is widding - achoo!). Today's post is postponed until tomorrow. Meanwhile, two videos in honor of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.<br /><br /><br /><object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/PbUtL_0vAJk?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/PbUtL_0vAJk?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br /><object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/rbxru9dl0sc?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/rbxru9dl0sc?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-54717652955902685972011-01-13T23:53:00.002-05:002011-01-14T00:17:57.679-05:00A request for infoI know I said I was going to blog on Sundays, but I'm going to spend this three-day weekend working on a grant application, and thinking about that reminded me that I meant to ask about something here.<br /><br />The Split Rock Arts Program in Minnesota used to have a really cool-sounding online mentorship program. You'd pay x amount of money for x number of hours, and they had some good writers as part of the program. But when I checked their site a while back, thinking that would be the perfect thing to write into this grant - to have someone who doesn't know me personally, and so doesn't have a friendship stake in it, do a thorough review of my manuscript - I saw that the program is no more. Wah!<br /><br />So - calling on the collective knowledge out there - do any of you know of a similar program that you would recommend? Not looking for classes or workshops as such, more of a one-on-one mentoring situation where someone would review my book-length ms.<br /><br />I can think of several individuals I could ask, and I could certainly write that in as a line item on the grant - but I think the committee will be more likely to look favorably upon something that is an established program of some sort.<br /><br />Failing that - I'm also willing to consider a week-long book-manuscript-focused workshop. But it has to take place between July 1, 2011 and June 30, 2012.<br /><br />Failing all of THAT - if I do approach an individual person - how much do y'all think is a reasonable amount? Figure that we're looking at a regular book-length poetry ms., 60-70ish pages; I haven't decided yet whether I'm going to try to get this grant for my first ms. (the one that's been going around for a year and a half & has gathered some kind words but enough flat-out rejections that I think it needs to be thoroughly revised), my second one (which is pretty close to being "finished" enough for someone to look at), or the third one I think I've just barely started on.<br /><br />I'd appreciate any feedback - thanks!<br /><br />(Or maybe I'll just ask for money for a new laptop - this one is on its last legs - and a nice little retreat to write some new stuff. There's always that option.)Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-34159101440576241622011-01-09T22:19:00.002-05:002011-01-09T22:38:30.062-05:00Language and responsibilityLike probably all of you, I've been sickened by the shootings in Arizona. So much of what I feel about this has been said, and said better, by others - but I really do believe that it's time (well past time, really) to take a long hard look at the way we use language.<br /><br />I'm not going to go so far as to say that the Tea Party et al. are directly responsible for the Arizona massacre, and it does seem pretty clear that the shooter was fairly thoroughly unhinged. Nonetheless, the messages that the Tea Party et al. have been putting out there have been so violent and so reprehensible that you can't help but think they are, if not the root of the problem, a pretty clear road sign pointing directly to the problem.<br /><br />As someone I follow on Twitter said: if you defend inflammatory rhetoric with "only a psycho would take it literally," don't be shocked and appalled when a psycho takes it literally. And, I would add, don't walk around feeling like your hands are entirely clean, either.<br /><br />Language. It's so much more powerful than so many of us, even us writers, give it credit for on a day-to-day basis. And I think it behooves us all - yes, even you; yes, even me - to try to be a little more aware of the language that we use and what is really at the root of it. Even sports. What kind of a worldview does it reinforce when we say something like "oh man, the Jets just slaughtered the Colts"?<br /><br />Anyway. It's worth some thought.<br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br />Watching this winter storm roll across the country - looking at a live shot of Atlanta's traffic right now, which is just crazy. And in northern Indiana, where my mom lives, they are digging out from three to four FEET of snow.<br /><br />I think the whole world has just gone bonkers, that's what I think. The politics, the violence, the weather - all of it.<br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br />I had another post in mind for this week, but after watching coverage of the Arizona thing yesterday, none of it seemed important. Next time, perhaps. Meanwhile I am still catching up on blog-reading, a few of you each day - at some point I may declare blog-bankruptcy and just start fresh reading only new posts, but I'm so interested to know what everyone's been up to. That's the problem, though - I'm too interested in too many things - it's just hard for me to walk away and unfollow, unfriend, unsubscribe, hide, skip over! But there's too much interesting content to ever stay caught up on all of it. When you're one of those people who wants to know everything, the Internet is a dangerous, dangerous place. :)Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-35827854739036102422011-01-02T22:58:00.003-05:002011-01-02T23:47:25.109-05:00ResolutionOh dear. No, I haven't fallen off the face of the earth (although my laptop has enough sticky/cranky keys that if I'm not careful my spelling will fall off the face of the earth). Honest.<br /><br />I haven't been writing much lately, and since this is allegedly a writing/poetry-focused blog I haven't felt like I've had much to say. But I do value the community of poet-bloggers, and I'm determined to remain a part of it, even if only in a smallish way. So, at least for now, I'm going to try to post weekly, and not ask more of myself than that. And I'll get back to reading y'all's blogs too, at least weekly. Surely I can set aside an hour or so on Sunday evenings. Right? Right.<br /><br />So 2010 is over, and here's 2011. Best thing that happened to me in 2010 was getting <a href="http://landmammal.blogspot.com/2010/10/kittenish.html">bekittened </a>- Tamarin is growing like crazy, happy and healthy and getting along beautifully with Bear and Lotus, the older cats. Here's a video of her about a month ago. She loves to snuggle up on my lap underneath the laptop where it's nice and warm, although now she's much bigger and it's a bit of a tight squeeze for her. (Those of you I see on Facebook & Twitter have already seen this one.) Turn up the sound; there's purring...<br /><br /><object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/7MdZx9IAhA4?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/7MdZx9IAhA4?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br />As for poetry - I don't believe in writer's block, but I haven't been writing much lately - but I have faith that I'll get back to it soon. I'm not going to AWP this year, sadly; I really really wish I could, but I just can't swing it financially. Next year, maybe.<br /><br />So... welcome, 2011. Welcome, anyone who still drops by this blog to see if anything is here. I've got some ideas for new posts, and planning to post weekly should help me be more thoughtful about content & actually write stuff up ahead of time. I have good intentions about sending poems out more often this year, too - that is if what I've got out ever comes back (my late summer/fall submissions seem to have accidentally targeted themselves to the particularly slooooooow response-time journals, sigh).<br /><br />Intentions, resolutions, whatever... I know where the road goes that is paved with them, but we'll see what happens, eh? :)Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-36106254172399206222010-10-23T22:20:00.003-04:002010-10-23T22:26:56.654-04:00Photographic evidenceAfter some 35 years of being a huge fan of Bruce Springsteen's E Street Band, I finally got to meet one of 'em. I didn't include this pic in my concert-review post because ... well, just because. But I'm enough of a googly-eyed fangirl to post it, so... here's Max and me. :) (I leave it as an exercise for the reader to figure out which one is the famous rockstar drummer and which is the doofy fangirl.)<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgq9W2Agc9JH_lW4KBC-8id5uNWdcqrHe0FACfd-wN2Mlu8aIEFSw_a6sCcA62E95XRJpTQLTzkpoPNx0eZULGm1cwZXGvzkpELcRZPMvPKoFtTx6TR7ZfYfAtjfO8emiD4J8h1/s1600/DSCN0527.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgq9W2Agc9JH_lW4KBC-8id5uNWdcqrHe0FACfd-wN2Mlu8aIEFSw_a6sCcA62E95XRJpTQLTzkpoPNx0eZULGm1cwZXGvzkpELcRZPMvPKoFtTx6TR7ZfYfAtjfO8emiD4J8h1/s400/DSCN0527.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531432900312638370" /></a>Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-451393534884102522010-10-23T20:37:00.006-04:002010-10-23T22:03:24.274-04:00Concert Review: Max Weinberg Big Band<i>The Max Weinberg Big Band at the Jazz Kitchen, Indianapolis IN, 10-20-2010</i><p></p><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1otvKMKbT4tSLDvxYuEvtyxBQuMFK9foi8USnsISFcrZFtgcZahnam-LY8uXcIGjrDl5C5MTisxF_rjTTheF8_wDbleSI3i5mBlyjzzVhOPncJLGdzhMsFiHvNViygslWFbU0/s1600/2010-10-20+21.03.38.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1otvKMKbT4tSLDvxYuEvtyxBQuMFK9foi8USnsISFcrZFtgcZahnam-LY8uXcIGjrDl5C5MTisxF_rjTTheF8_wDbleSI3i5mBlyjzzVhOPncJLGdzhMsFiHvNViygslWFbU0/s320/2010-10-20+21.03.38.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531407330598174610" /></a><div><div>Ask any <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/E_Street_Band">E Street Band</a> member, according to <a href="http://www.maxweinberg.com/">Max Weinberg</a>, about Indianapolis and they will tell you a story from the 1978 Darkness tour. Apparently the soundcheck finished early and the band headed over to a local, um, entertainment club for gentlemen – <a href="http://wikimapia.org/29531/The-Red-Garter-Gentlemans-Club-Cigar-Lounge">the Red Garter</a> – for some relaxation. Clarence Clemons, being as Max phrased it “a man of varied interests,” befriended (I think that’s what you call it) several of the strippers there and, unbeknownst to the rest of the band, not only invited them to the show – but invited them onstage for what was surely one of the most memorable renditions of “Tenth Avenue Freeze-Out” in E Street history.</div><div> <p>It must have been memorable, because Max recounted the story during both of his Max Weinberg Big Band shows at the Jazz Kitchen in Indianapolis this week – adding that he laughed his butt off as Clarence played directly to the strippers as if the rest of the band weren’t even there. No such shenanigans ensued at the Jazz Kitchen, though; just a high-energy, thoroughly entertaining big band show. </p> <p>Of course, this was a much smaller venue than anything the Springsteen/E Street outfit ever plays, despite the fact that there were fifteen guys onstage – five saxes, three trombones, four trumpets, piano, bass, and drums. Such a small venue, in fact, that those of us at the front tables had to be grateful that the saxes were in the front row and not the trombones! I was fortunate enough to have tickets for both the sold-out early show and the nearly-sold-out late show, and what a fun evening it was. Some highlights: </p><ul> <li>Max seemed to be enjoying himself immensely. He seemed relaxed and happy as he introduced songs, sometimes giving a little bit of musical history or joking around a bit (don’t worry, Conan – your job is in no danger). He played with joy, sometimes looking almost like an excited little boy behind the drums, sometimes concentrating intensely, sometimes exchanging glances with various band members or directing them with a nod. Totally Irrelevant Fashion Note: If recent pix I’ve seen of Jay are any indication, this may be the first time that Max’s hair has been longer than his son’s.<br /></li> <li>The setlist was nicely varied – everything from crime show theme songs (apparently a bit of a specialty for Max) to tunes like “The Kid From Red Bank” to the Sinatra tribute “Only the Lonely” and the smokin’ hot Buddy Rich-inspired “Parthenia,” with stops along the way for a Beatles medley (“Help,” “Do You Want To Know A Secret,” and – a high-octane highlight – “Kansas City”) and, closing out each set, a Springsteen cover (“Kitty’s Back” for the early set, “Born to Run” for the late show). While Max took the opportunity to showcase some subtlety and versatility in his own playing that he doesn’t often get to deploy with “that other band I play with,” it wasn’t a drum-solo fest by any means. Each of the band members had a chance to shine, and Max was generous with the spotlight, making sure to introduce all of the guys by name at least a couple of times. </li> <li>And what a great band it was, versatile and energetic. Musical highlights included a “duel” between two of the sax players during “Rat Race,” a fantastic trumpet solo during “Kansas City,” and pretty much every note played by the phenomenal young bass player <a href="http://www.carlitosdelpuerto.com/">Carlitos del Puerto</a>. Second only to Max, del Puerto looked like he was having the most fun up there, his face occasionally breaking into a grin of pure delight as he kept an eagle eye trained on Max’s beat. </li> <li>The two Springsteen covers – both arranged by one of the trumpet players – were very interesting. “Kitty’s Back” worked incredibly well as a big-band number and suited the band to a tee. It’s almost as if the song had been intended to be heard this way from the start. “Born to Run,” on the other hand, felt more like a big-band tribute to the original. It was a lot of fun, and got the audience thoroughly engaged; and it was thrilling to watch Max’s drum work on this classic from just a few feet away. (And, as Max pointed out, the arrangement got a nod of approval from Bruce when he heard it on the radio a while back.) But it didn’t feel as revelatory as “Kitty” did.</li> <li>I’m glad I was able to attend both shows. The early show was terrific, with “Kitty’s Back” being a particular highlight. The late show was considerably looser (Max mentioned that during the break they’d learned that the Jazz Kitchen serves “generous” drinks, which may have contributed to the looseness), with Max escalating the force and velocity of his drumming to E Street proportions at least once or twice. Several tunes were repeated from one set to the next, including “Parthenia” and the Beatles medley, but there was enough variation to make it well worth buying tickets for both. </li> <li>Max mentioned from the stage that the MWBB would be the house band at the upcoming <a href="http://remind.org/events/stand_up_for_heroes/invitation">“Stand Up for Heroes”</a> show (featuring Tony Bennett, Jerry Seinfeld, and some guy named Springsteen on the bill). Should be a fun evening for those who can splurge on tickets for this worthwhile benefit. </li> <li>He also mentioned his <a href="http://www.fancast.com/blogs/2010/interviews/max-weinberg-open-heart-surgery-influenced-my-decision-to-leave-conan/">recent heart surgery</a>, assuring the crowd that he is now in excellent health (and to this untrained eye he appeared to be fitter than ever; I overheard him telling a fan afterwards that his doctor had estimated he can expect to live another 35 years). </li> <li>And he even promised, from the stage, that “that other band I play with” would be coming back around “sooner rather than much later” – estimating that it would be in 2012, and assuring us that Indianapolis would surely be on the schedule. (Not that we Hoosiers should hold our breaths till we turn blue or anything, but Bruce, if you’re reading this, the Red Garter is ready and waiting for you!) </li> <li>A note about the venue. This was my first visit to <a href="http://www.thejazzkitchen.com/">the Jazz Kitchen</a>, and it won’t be the last. In addition to being a fine music venue – you gotta love a place with placards on the tables requesting no talking during the music! – it more than holds its own as a restaurant. I had the “not so Cajun” chicken, which was spicy and delicious, and a decadent brownie dessert. Even with a packed house, the service was excellent – my water glass and coffee cup were never empty. I was glad I’d decided to go early enough to enjoy a leisurely dinner before the show started. </li> </ul> <p>If you have the opportunity to catch the Max Weinberg Big Band, by all means do so! Expect a high-energy show, though don’t expect an encore (after the late show several members of the audience were calling for an encore and I noted a couple of the band members muttering “no!” and hurrying one another off the stage). And expect Max to be very accessible to fans after the show; I’ve heard that he is making a point of doing so throughout this tour, and in Indy he was more than happy to accommodate requests for autographs, photos, handshakes, and chatting after both sets. (Fangirl note: I’ve been listening to the E Street Band since 1975, but living in the Midwest doesn’t give one as many “meet and greet” opportunities as one may find elsewhere. Thus, this was my first chance to meet and speak with any of the band members. Certainly it was secondary to the great music I’d enjoyed, but getting to meet Max, exchange a few words, and get a photo with him made me a pretty darned happy fangirl – I’ll admit it.) </p> <p>A truly fun evening all around.</p></div></div><br /><object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/J-MQ0NXhTzY?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/J-MQ0NXhTzY?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-54081417225158438622010-10-19T20:15:00.004-04:002010-10-23T17:26:01.349-04:00AutumnishI haven't posted a poem draft here in a long time. Haven't been drafting that many poems, truth be told. I'm going to post this even though it's a first draft, just for shits & giggles, and I'll take it down in a day or so (even though I'm not sure this blog has many readers anymore). <div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div><i>[snippety snip]</i></div></div>Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-27259508054753571712010-10-18T23:52:00.008-04:002010-10-19T00:51:28.930-04:00KittenishYes, I've been gone again. I hope to catch up with everyone's blogs soon. (Well, not EVERYone's. But yours. Certainly.) <div><br />But look! I brought show and tell!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEig_8V6LnNBQU-lZ1WfDbCyYGlmuIHtqZ3L3Rgsgofm_b7u-wbXP4qhkWnjqvLXDqXuITMDXIq2gz-kPWN6JWRK3YXMmYiXoDnarce9T929uqEFByQ8kts5IGI_Ho-dZ-WYHJBQ/s1600/DSCN0356.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEig_8V6LnNBQU-lZ1WfDbCyYGlmuIHtqZ3L3Rgsgofm_b7u-wbXP4qhkWnjqvLXDqXuITMDXIq2gz-kPWN6JWRK3YXMmYiXoDnarce9T929uqEFByQ8kts5IGI_Ho-dZ-WYHJBQ/s400/DSCN0356.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529601215123062066" /></a>Meet Tamarin. Yep, a few minutes after this picture was taken, she came home with me. She was 9 weeks old at the time, two weeks ago. </div><div><br /></div><div>See, a co-worker (M.) had started feeding this skinny stray cat, who turned up pregnant. M. took her to the vet, who confirmed that kitty was a) probably only about a year old, if that; b) terribly malnourished; c) FeLV and FIV negative, and d) pregnant. (We think she was probably adopted by a student last fall when she was a cute kitten and then abandoned in May.) M. took her in, over the objections of her existing two cats, and kitty proceeded to pop out TEN kittens. One of them only made it a couple of weeks, but between mama cat's nursing and M.'s bottle feeding, nine of them were healthy and happy and eventually ready to be adopted. </div><div><br /></div><div>I went over when they were 8 weeks old - you know, because who can resist a "come over and play with a bunch of kittens!" invitation? Truth be told, I'd resisted that invitation for a few weeks, because I knew it would be hard to resist bringing one home. By the time I visited, most of them were spoken for, so it felt a little safer. </div><div><br /></div><div>These were, as it turns out, about the healthiest and best-socialized little kittens I had ever seen. They had the dual advantage of being nursed by a very good mamacat AND being bottle-fed and hand-raised by a very good foster-human, so they had that fearless, "of course everybody is my friend" confidence that some kittens have. When they ventured out into the living room where M.'s older cats were still seriously p.o.'d about their home being invaded by the little beasties, the kittens just blinked and went about their business. I knew one of 'em could definitely hold its own with my two ginormous bigcats. </div><div><br /></div><div>Normally when you bring home a new cat it takes a few days, at least, for the existing cats to adapt and get over it. So it didn't alarm me when Bear and Lotus did some hissing the first night and into the next day. But 24 hours after bringing her home, Lotus and Tamarin (she's named after a type of small adorable monkey, which suits her) started negotiating the rules of play and were playing tag and hide-and-seek and Kittianapolis 500 in short order. Bear doesn't spend as much time rocketing around the house with her as Lotus does, but he's quite pleased with her as well, and will sit there patiently while she pounces on his plumey tail over and over and over. </div><div><br /></div>Bear and Lotus are so good with her:<br /><br /><table><tbody><tr><td><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh27_E2pDNbZ61FQy_7J6-B9sfptL8W8fxT94VIqDnNruY4qckMklv34IBsiUHKz30bFLFTDnTmBGS_VhC8CMlEt9CgXEp7vRQ7a2y69dH6luGP6BGL_y0L8RMwPIEH37oHn5aA/s1600/DSCN0402.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 264px; height: 198px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh27_E2pDNbZ61FQy_7J6-B9sfptL8W8fxT94VIqDnNruY4qckMklv34IBsiUHKz30bFLFTDnTmBGS_VhC8CMlEt9CgXEp7vRQ7a2y69dH6luGP6BGL_y0L8RMwPIEH37oHn5aA/s320/DSCN0402.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529609910230187490" /></a></td><td><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgxSyPL2NTWtoHoYB1ZqzJU0WFNW2AJbPFw5b617Dfw7YXp1pMDpDWUAvvkwBaTzNKNdGhJXxfn2KfPn1mKLj85WYEHw5eEJGXb3BRU3ehV1mQa494DSnd4yueTYBLRUi3W2MY5/s1600/2010-10-17+16.01.19.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 264px; height: 198px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgxSyPL2NTWtoHoYB1ZqzJU0WFNW2AJbPFw5b617Dfw7YXp1pMDpDWUAvvkwBaTzNKNdGhJXxfn2KfPn1mKLj85WYEHw5eEJGXb3BRU3ehV1mQa494DSnd4yueTYBLRUi3W2MY5/s320/2010-10-17+16.01.19.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529611184120448866" /></a><br /></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><div>And me? I'm smitten. How could I not be? </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjbYM9oFc_RzFLPEFX6rQxbTPJfEHg5IzSVZg6fscVjxNvezcxNrurh5SiQ1khUZxfMW5rkwRMbZ4bhm_9xQAOD-2xMk0eGSI1AcWv-gDFGyzoct0Z54Hws2G94P-MHYC1Aqwqp/s1600/DSCN0391.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjbYM9oFc_RzFLPEFX6rQxbTPJfEHg5IzSVZg6fscVjxNvezcxNrurh5SiQ1khUZxfMW5rkwRMbZ4bhm_9xQAOD-2xMk0eGSI1AcWv-gDFGyzoct0Z54Hws2G94P-MHYC1Aqwqp/s400/DSCN0391.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529608689752062210" /></a><br /><br />So that's what I've been up to. I have some new (completely non-kitten-related) poem drafts, too, and maybe I'll post one here in the next day or two (leaving it up for 24 hours or so - so keep an eye out if you're interested).Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-43879633740687644812010-09-10T23:55:00.007-04:002010-09-11T00:41:18.508-04:00Season of failing lightSo there was the trip to Cleveland, which I've mentioned. Then there was a longweekend of running up to Mom's. Then there was the first week of classes and the accompanying realization that summer is over. Then there was a work week dominated by talking with candidates for a brand-new position as head of our department.<br /><br />Frankly, I'm worn out. I want to do this for about a week:<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2714YXmXudcV6hUvyFsFsOWs1OZ9XIwPEbjwZz3hTGuIJXHnuLv_gBTwzrQNR8aSUnU6i7Y27Scn3E7quJEKHkZs4www-OpeOyON3_xpElWybtyZgs5SecWr_NORjeTGJNCuY/s1600/2010-07-04+20.45.33.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2714YXmXudcV6hUvyFsFsOWs1OZ9XIwPEbjwZz3hTGuIJXHnuLv_gBTwzrQNR8aSUnU6i7Y27Scn3E7quJEKHkZs4www-OpeOyON3_xpElWybtyZgs5SecWr_NORjeTGJNCuY/s320/2010-07-04+20.45.33.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5515500194200101250" border="0" /></a><br /><p> </p>The work stuff has been good - the candidates our search committee brought in were very smart people and it was fun talking to them, and the process kind of reinvigorated me about my job a bit, the way talking to people with ideas often can - but to be honest I'm not used to being so emotionally invested in my job. I love my job, don't get me wrong - it is work that I believe in, that I care about, and that I'm sometimes pretty good at - but a couple of super busy work weeks don't usually drain me to the point that I collapse on the couch in front of the U.S. Open and am too tired to get up even when someone bangs on my front door, which is what happened this evening. (I'm going to assume it was somebody with some kind of a petition, or else Mormons. It's usually one of those.)<br /><br />No wonder I'm not writing much right now. It's not so much that it takes enormous amounts of time to write poems, but (for me anyway) it takes emotional and intellectual focus. It takes my full attention and a level of energy that I can't muster up right now.<br /><br />It'll be back. I know that.<br /><br /><br />Here's where I was two years ago:<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilZpML5iQ1whejb2AqddfBCmVce6kzItZ2-45pgqh6f4XoBrJStQKgKcYsmKHLG6NU51yFSa297QDp4iyH6A2-8oupoJGgmQ42J_eaLxY2mYUjWm8KmC7rbyKVCR50dyHY42c0/s1600/HPIM2952.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilZpML5iQ1whejb2AqddfBCmVce6kzItZ2-45pgqh6f4XoBrJStQKgKcYsmKHLG6NU51yFSa297QDp4iyH6A2-8oupoJGgmQ42J_eaLxY2mYUjWm8KmC7rbyKVCR50dyHY42c0/s400/HPIM2952.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5515511085491735426" border="0" /></a><br />I miss the ocean sometimes. I do have some good concerts to look forward to, though - Shawn Colvin at the end of this month, John Mellencamp's first hometown show in a decade next month, and (providing I manage to buy tickets) the Max Weinberg Big Band up in Indianapolis next month. As always - music, even just the thought of looking forward to music, revives me.<br /><br /><br />Lastly, a poem. I forget who posted this on Twitter or Facebook a while back, but whoever it was, thanks. I'm not sure why I love this poem, but I do. It came from the <a href="http://www.vermontstudiocenter.org/jenny-george-writing-sample/">Vermont Studio Center's website</a>.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br />The Miniature Bed</span><br /><br />A miniature bed, and in it two tiny people<br />not sleeping, not able to sleep because<br />a small lie has flowered between them,<br />fragile as a new, white crocus.<br />The miniature bed holds them like a miniature boat<br />making its slow, true course to morning.<br />These tiny people, thoughts thrumming like mice,<br />are quiet as the lie blooms luminous<br />over them in the night, fanning its moth petals,<br />becoming to them like a moon hovering<br />over their bed, a moon they might almost touch<br />with their miniature hands, if they weren’t certain<br />that one wrong gesture might break<br />the spindles of their small world, if their hearts<br />were not drops of trembling quicksilver,<br />if they were brave, if they could see<br />that small is no smaller than big, that thimbles<br />are deep as oceans for any god, they might even<br />touch each other then, opening the dark,<br />like a match the sun’s flaring.<br /><br />-Jenny GeorgeAnne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-37493143239451140532010-08-29T23:03:00.004-04:002010-08-29T23:24:48.904-04:00LinkaliciousYes, before everyone asks, I did see the Emmy Awards opening number tonight - Jimmy Fallon, Tina Fey, the cast of "Glee," et al. doing "Born to Run." Video is posted over at <a href="http://blogs.wickedlocal.com/springsteen/2010/08/29/video-roundup-crazy-covers-edition/">Blogness on the Edge of Town</a>, if your life won't be complete without seeing it... it was, well, weird.<br /><br />In other linkage:<br /><br />Nice <a href="http://newsinfo.iu.edu/news/page/normal/15140.html">interview with Catherine Bowman</a> over at the IU News Room, about her creative process (always a favorite topic of mine).<br /><br />Shameless self-promotion: the <a href="http://tiptonpoetryjournal.com/tpj16/tpj_issue16.html">Winter 2010 issue of the Tipton Poetry Journal</a> is now online, including a poem of mine.<br /><br />How to make the <a href="http://brucespringsteen.net/news/index.html">Bruce Springsteen</a> fan community collectively squeal like little girls - announce a huge, lavish, amazing-sounding <a href="http://www.sonymusicdigital.com/bruce-springsteen-the-promise/pages/5634215/">"Darkness on the Edge of Town" box set</a>, coming out in November. The documentary and the accompanying 80-page book (!) look like they will reveal a lot about Springsteen's creative process (see? we have a theme going on here!) around the album. Even if you're only a casual Bruce fan, check out the trailer for the documentary. "Words all over the place." Hee!<br /><br /><object width="400" height="225"><param name="allowfullscreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><param name="movie" value="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=14453246&server=vimeo.com&show_title=0&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=&fullscreen=1&autoplay=0&loop=0"><embed src="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=14453246&server=vimeo.com&show_title=0&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=&fullscreen=1&autoplay=0&loop=0" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" width="400" height="225"></embed></object><p><a href="http://vimeo.com/14453246">Bruce Springsteen - "The Promise: The Making of 'Darkness on the Edge of Town'" Sneak Peek</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/columbiarecords">Columbia Records</a> on <a href="http://vimeo.com/">Vimeo</a>.</p><br />Finally, something I saw on a light pole downtown today. If this doesn't break your heart a little bit, maybe you don't have one.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg78Y1vJyDIRzmCPHlEhXjyk-0R1xnXtelRT_ZtiSiMEkGJL2aMCmJgzEQm-uMx1o9DbcWmrIuOLQhv44fHB5igxDM_XZBpLy0DyeWXw5CeDqFb7Rl8BsvW6smuCxLG1mnnU8TR/s1600/2010-08-29+15.59.06.jpg"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg78Y1vJyDIRzmCPHlEhXjyk-0R1xnXtelRT_ZtiSiMEkGJL2aMCmJgzEQm-uMx1o9DbcWmrIuOLQhv44fHB5igxDM_XZBpLy0DyeWXw5CeDqFb7Rl8BsvW6smuCxLG1mnnU8TR/s320/2010-08-29+15.59.06.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5511037287788621890" border="0" /></a>Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-70371931845163094992010-08-17T00:06:00.005-04:002010-08-17T01:41:17.686-04:00Notes from the Rock Hall 2: Music and LyricsSo, you don't have to know me very long to learn that I love music. Whether it's a <a href="http://landmammal.blogspot.com/2010/03/night-i-talked-to-yo-yo-ma.html">lovely cello recital by Yo-Yo Ma</a>, an evening with a <a href="http://landmammal.blogspot.com/2010/06/blogadoon.html">legitimate guitar god</a>, or a <a href="http://landmammal.blogspot.com/2008/08/quick-rockin-notes.html">road trip across the Midwest</a> to experience <a href="http://landmammal.blogspot.com/2008/08/super-quick-notes.html">the glorious roar</a> that is a <a href="http://landmammal.blogspot.com/2008/08/road-notes-from-e-street-nation.html">Bruce Springsteen/E Street Band concert</a>, there is pretty much <a href="http://landmammal.blogspot.com/2009/05/road-notes-from-e-street-nation-part-2_24.html">nothing I love more than music</a> - preferably live.<br /><br />My recent trip to the <a href="http://rockhall.com/">Rock & Roll Hall of Fame</a> was such a feast of memories for me. Everything from the Beatles memorabilia (the Beatles being the first rock band I really fell in love with) to the audio stations where you could listen to little snippets from various influential radio DJ's of past decades (and I remembered secretly listening to my little transistor radio late into the night when I was supposed to be asleep, sometimes pulling in stations from far-off mysterious cities like Chicago) to the extensive <a href="http://rockhall.com/exhibits/from_asbury_park__promised_land/">artifact-driven exhibit</a> tracing Bruce Springsteen's history, I was reminded over and over of the hours I spent immersed in music as a teenager. Bruce sings "<span style="font-style: italic;">We learned more from a three-minute record than we ever learned in school...</span>" and it's true, you learn so much from anything you immerse yourself in like that, it marks you forever. Some of the guitar licks I've listened to a million times have probably managed to sink into my bones and change the actual way that I walk. (My poem in the new issue of <a style="font-style: italic;" href="http://www.newmadridjournal.org/index.htm">New Madrid</a>, "The Roar the Day After," is about being in high school and the way that music just doesn't leave your head and you walk around in it all day.)<br /><br />But I realized more than anything, especially as I pored over the handwritten lyrics of a bunch of different artists, how that immersion in music is what made a poet out of me. I say that instinctively, but what does it mean? Well, rock & roll gives you permission to obsess, for one thing - to listen over and over, to pick apart the little nuances, to explore the same damn theme over and over (how many love songs are there anyway?) - and I don't think you can be a poet without understanding obsession on some level. At least I can't.<br /><br />And, the songs gave me little templates to follow. Yeah, a lot of what I wrote in high school was intended as song lyrics, but even when I moved past that, the music had taught me something about sound and rhythm that I would never have understood had I spent the same amount of time strictly counting iambs or whatever. The sound and rhythm gave me a template, but they also gave me enough freedom to deviate where necessary; instead of slavishly sticking to "da-DUM da-DUM da-DUM da-DUM" I had something more fluid to work with, something that felt alive. And even when I moved past writing verse-chorus-verse songs and started writing poems, music gave me a sense of structure: understanding how you move from the beginning of something to the end, how you can tell a story even while you loop back and repeat yourself now and then, and how the same words and lines repeated can carry different intent and resonance depending on where they fall in the structure of the thing - look at how the last chorus of a song can have an entirely different feeling from the first instance of the chorus, depending on where the song has gone in between times.<br /><br />The music gave me, too, an instinctive understanding of how different sounds convey different kinds of meaning. How a staccato line of short syllables and lots of consonants has an entirely different emotional weight and resonance than a slow line with vowel sounds that are crooned and sustained. That's equally true in music and in poetry.<br /><br />Now, I'm not going to make a case for song lyrics <span style="font-style: italic;">being </span>poetry. Maybe sometimes they are, but I think 99% of the time they are different beasts entirely (which is why I think a lot of "poems set to music" fail). Bruce Springsteen, Joni Mitchell, Bob Dylan - all of them write wonderful images and tell great stories, and the lyrics are often worth studying and thinking about and considering possible interpretations. And a few of the musicians I love are legitimate poets and/or writers; Patti Smith was a published poet before she became a musician, and Rosanne Cash was writing well before she took up music (though she didn't publish extensively until she'd become known as a musician - her collection of short stories <span style="font-style: italic;">Bodies of Water</span> is worth picking up, and I've just started reading her brand-new memoir, <span style="font-style: italic;">Composed</span>, which is beautifully written).<br /><br />But songs are not poems. To say this is not to take anything away from them; the lyrics aren't any less masterful for being songs and not poems. You can read the lyrics on paper, but that's like viewing a painting in black and white. You can appreciate it, and you may even gain a new understanding and appreciation of it because taking away certain dimensions of the work lets you see things you might have missed otherwise. But you're not experiencing the whole work of art if you separate the music and the lyrics. No matter how great the lyrics are, they are meant to be a part of the larger whole.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://rockhall.com/exhibits/from_asbury_park__promised_land/gallery/from-asbury-park-to-the-promis/1345/#first_content"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="http://rockhall.com/media/assets/gallery_photos/default/f58/e7f/b7bee0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>At the Rock Hall, I spent hours studying handwritten lyrics (I looked at a lot of people's; it may not surprise you to know that Steven Tyler couldn't spell for crap when he wrote "Walk This Way" or that Jimi Hendrix had large, somewhat self-consciously ornate, very distinctive handwriting). As I stared at the pages of the actual spiral notebook in which Bruce Springsteen drafted "Born to Run" - pages upon pages of the thing; that song did not come easily for him and he wrote and revised and wrote and revised for what must have been months - the thing that struck me the most, and startled me the most, was how <span style="font-style: italic;">familiar </span>those pages felt. I looked at Bruce's notebooks from his early twenties, and thought about my notebooks from my early twenties, and realized how very similar they really were. For just a few moments, I thought, "wow, Bruce Springsteen and I are, at the heart of it, in the same line of work."<br /><br />And after all these years, I liked that a lot.Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-81681672017193191352010-08-10T21:54:00.003-04:002010-08-10T22:13:04.414-04:00Notes from the Rock Hall, 1More substantial posts coming, but I want to sustain whatever small momentum I've found here.<br /><br />So, last week I spent two full days in the <a href="http://rockhall.com">Rock & Roll Hall of Fame</a> in Cleveland, and it was fantastic. Yes, you can quibble about the induction criteria and about who's in versus who's not (the fact that Abba got inducted this year and Darlene Love, who was on the ballot, did not is just a crying shame) - but for anyone who's grown up with this music it is an absolute treasure trove of memory and revelation. So many times I found myself standing in front of an album cover I'd spent hours upon hours staring at in high school while playing the album over and over, and next to that album cover, <span style="font-style: italic;">the actual thing</span> that was <span style="font-style: italic;">on </span>the cover. John Lennon's costume from the cover of Sgt. Pepper. Stevie Nicks' pointe shoes from the cover of Rumours. And, of course, Bruce Springsteen's guitar and leather jacket from the cover of Born to Run. (That jacket is <span style="font-style: italic;">tiny</span>, too. He was a scrawny little dude. So many dreams packed into that small, beat-to-hell-and-back leather jacket.)<br /><br />Other than the Springsteen stuff (which I'll get to later), probably the thing that made the biggest impression on me was <a href="http://rockhall.com/inductees/john-lennon/">John Lennon</a>'s first passport, issued in 1960. When he first got the passport, he filled out all the blanks dutifully, writing "Student" in the space marked for Profession. Later on - and oh, how I wish there were some way of knowing exactly when - he came back and, with a considerably bolder and firmer pen, lined through the word "Student" and wrote "Musician."<br /><br />The power of naming oneself. Just intense.<br /><br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br />Also, I've pretty much decided I am going to do my damnedest to get to AWP next year. More later about why (I'm not on any panels); for now, I just want to throw out there that I will read at the drop of a hat, or a poem, so if any editors or other reading organizers would like a middle-aged Midwestern poet on their bill, you know where to find me. :)Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-81219099102586552762010-08-09T23:03:00.002-04:002010-08-09T23:19:01.336-04:00Testing the waters<div class="gmail_quote"> <div>So, yeah, I've been even more absent from here than usual. On the one hand, nothing momentous has happened that I feel I <span style="font-style: italic;">must </span>blog about. On the other hand, there's a level of connectedness in the (yucky word) blogosphere, one that I do actually treasure, and which takes a certain amount of care and feeding to maintain. And I find myself, often, with words on the tip of my tongue.<br /></div> <div> </div> <div>I haven't been reading y'all for a while and I haven't been writing here either. I guess I've been on an unannounced hiatus. I'm back, I think, in a quiet sort of way. Starting to catch up with the blog-reading to see what everyone's been up to. Dipping my toes back in.<br /></div> <div> </div> <div>I've been active on Facebook and on Twitter. Those feel like very different venues of communication than a blog. Impermanent - Twitter especially, even though the Library of Congress is archiving tweets now. It's like a stream that moves on, and if you don't catch it for a while there are no repercussions. Unlike blogs, where I feel a certain responsibility to try and catch up, at least with some of y'all bloggers with whom I feel a sense of shared history. Lately I've felt more of an affinity for shallow, rapidly moving water than for the depths, I guess. </div> <div> </div> <div>Boy, that all sounds kind of pompous. </div> <div> </div> <div>Anyway, I am missing discursiveness and writing whole sentences. I can tell because essay ideas and blog post ideas are starting to bubble up for me. I am thinking that I will make a spreadsheet of them (because I'm that kind of a nerd) and set aside time each day for thoughtful writing. (Because, much as I love Twitter, it's not "thoughtful writing.") Some of that will, I hope, be for this blog. </div> <div> </div> <div>So my thanks to those of y'all who haven't yet given up on me. I'm here. :) </div> <div> </div></div> <div class="gmail_quote"><br />As for the poetry part of my life. Haven't been writing that many poems - those are from the deep end too, and I've been in the wading pool soaking up some sun - but I've been sending out like crazy. (Well, relatively speaking, for me anyway.) I've had some good results, including a poem in the just-released new issue of New Madrid, and a <span style="font-style: italic;">very </span>encouraging rejection from a very good journal I've been trying to get into since 1988. (I don't name names on rejections, sorry! Superstition, I suppose.) Meanwhile, a far newer and far less prestigious journal asked for some poems, then rejected them with a form email - just to keep me humble, I suppose, as if there were some danger of me becoming a diva at this late date! You gotta laugh. It's a silly game we play, isn't it?<br /></div> <div class="gmail_quote"> </div> <div class="gmail_quote">Still no nibbles on the book manuscript, which I intend to pull apart and try to revise it with a fresh eye. I think it's a relatively solid manuscript, but it hasn't been catching attention, and I suspect it could be made better.<br /><br /><br /><br />I took a little summer vacation last week and made a road trip to Cleveland to visit the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame. Oddly enough, I learned some things about writing there. Stay tuned. :)<br /></div>Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-46935251946268277502010-06-24T00:01:00.002-04:002010-06-24T01:06:39.997-04:00BlogadoonYeah... it's the blog that occasionally rises out of the mist then disappears again. Or maybe it's the blogger herself who's doing that. Perhaps I am mythical. :)<br /><br />Got a concert review for you, but first a quick note - my poem "Cover" (which comes from "Chasing Angels," my manuscript about a fictional rock musician) is up at <a href="http://www.hamiltonstone.org/hsr.html">Hamilton Stone Review</a>. Go take a peek if you are so inclined! Fellow blogger <a href="http://jessiecarty.com/blog/">Jessie Carty</a> has a couple of poems in the same issue.<br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgTxOOF1Xt8EN0jURMvhE2hlfEMzabR7PJFE0SswmYUSWxe3PIv-MgP_vz0Kdv4UmkzXStZm3HL8OcpRcrsGmXrqCBpOWyDoo4-XrLZzPgfe4TPS-ZS1mAL_v5Neb2fHJOpBzQ/s1600/DSCN0312.JPG"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgTxOOF1Xt8EN0jURMvhE2hlfEMzabR7PJFE0SswmYUSWxe3PIv-MgP_vz0Kdv4UmkzXStZm3HL8OcpRcrsGmXrqCBpOWyDoo4-XrLZzPgfe4TPS-ZS1mAL_v5Neb2fHJOpBzQ/s320/DSCN0312.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5486194915396791426" border="0" /></a>So I was fortunate enough to have a ticket to see legitimate guitar god <a href="http://www.jeffbeck.com/">Jeff Beck</a> in Indy the other night. I'd never seen him before, though I've seen videos and so had pretty high expectations of the performance. I left Bloomington in a rush just ahead of a storm rolling in - managed to outrun it, which kind of set the tone for the night. When I got into the venue I made a quick pit stop and was highly, highly amused to note that there was a line out into the lobby area for the men's room, and no line to speak of for the women's room. Yes, it was just that testosterone-laden a crowd. It's been a long time since I was at a show with that kind of audience; Springsteen crowds tend to be pretty gender-balanced.<br /><br />The opening act was a singer-songwriter type with an acoustic guitar and a small keyboard, accompanied by a second guitarist. She was pretty and had a nice voice, with a pleasant Lilith Fair-ish vibe, but ultimately fairly uninspiring. And really, a crowd full of middle-aged electric-guitar geeks (I seriously overheard at least two conversations going into great technical detail about some piece of equipment or other - guitars, amps, etc.) just was not her crowd.<br /><br />Finally Jeff Beck and his band (Narada Michael Walden on drums, Rhonda Smith on bass, and Jason Rebello on keyboards) took the stage. The first number was seriously rocking, and the energy in the venue increased a thousandfold. The drums kicked in and I realized it had been way too long since I'd been to a good loud concert. Sometimes, a girl just needs to rock!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkmbrtfelqSHmk09hwwkopN3ixLghM32vKzus-C_iYSTHsX6Zd621MNlYa0gjMstxIbQ9sjTuGGqQ5HMjwNiYnB3feNQL0xmtTI8bwSb3m369lv02AbBJm2A76Tbwv4npZ_sUo/s1600/2010-06-21+21.15.36.jpg"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkmbrtfelqSHmk09hwwkopN3ixLghM32vKzus-C_iYSTHsX6Zd621MNlYa0gjMstxIbQ9sjTuGGqQ5HMjwNiYnB3feNQL0xmtTI8bwSb3m369lv02AbBJm2A76Tbwv4npZ_sUo/s320/2010-06-21+21.15.36.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5486202016013962210" border="0" /></a>The venue had folding chairs set up, and I had mixed feelings about the seated thing. The seats were narrow and close together, and it was hot & crowded. When Beck & band took the stage everyone leaped up and stood for the first couple of songs, and that felt really good, but being 5 foot 1 I can't see much in a situation like that (I was back in about the 15th row, which isn't too far back, but at my height it doesn't take much). Throughout the evening a lot of songs elicited standing ovations - it was like church up in there with all the stand up sit down stand up sit down!); when people were sitting I could see the stage nicely, but it is really hard for me to listen to music like that and just sit still. Standing up allows me to experience the music physically, with my whole body.<br /><br />So we got everything from screaming rock to blues to jazz to standards: an incredibly diverse setlist. Beck's versions of some tunes, like "Somewhere Over the Rainbow," verged on - I hate to say it - "smooth jazz." That is not a compliment. But he made even those tame tunes come alive with his sheer virtuosity. When he coaxes notes like that out of his white Stratocaster, all is forgiven. "Rainbow" a real showcase for his absolute control of tone and dynamics, and the audience seemed particularly taken with it. I will admit I preferred the more rocking tunes myself. There was one song (I'm not good at titles when there are no lyrics to remind me) with a heavy, heavy bass that sounded almost Led Zeppelin-esque, and I really loved that one.<br /><br />His band was wonderful. The keyboards were necessary for the more orchestral arrangements; for other songs, he could very well have managed with only the guitar/bass/drums trio. Narada Michael Walden was fantastic, very musical (something I don't always get from drummers), and his presence was buoyant, a radiant energy behind the drum kit. Rhonda Smith, who played with Prince for a number of years, was incredibly funky and soulful and versatile on the bass and occasional vocals. I love how Jeff Beck uses the bass; though I never saw his previous touring band in person, I've seen video and the bassist from that band, Tal Wilkenfeld, is also absolutely brilliant. (Look her up. I think she's playing with Herbie Hancock now.)<br /><br />Oftentimes Beck would be completely absorbed in his playing, standing sideways to the audience in order to better communicate with his band. He was all about the music, not so much the showmanship - which is absolutely fine. He spoke several times to introduce songs, but not at length, and kind of awkwardly; you got the feeling he mostly just wanted to shut up and play.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikcgJ1mSJIv4asewwwMMxlLI852oIbCGIbM4klkKtuGDwZiecpSnisF1aYHUIeotFqxdTIF7EP5Csgz4I5YX-58IfRb_AXIOFWxUPmlWdJwVtaeFwjj5ErcjyxAGoWjuFMU-MI/s1600/DSCN0324.JPG"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikcgJ1mSJIv4asewwwMMxlLI852oIbCGIbM4klkKtuGDwZiecpSnisF1aYHUIeotFqxdTIF7EP5Csgz4I5YX-58IfRb_AXIOFWxUPmlWdJwVtaeFwjj5ErcjyxAGoWjuFMU-MI/s320/DSCN0324.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5486196078499963874" border="0" /></a>During the show he played two different white Stratocasters. The Strat is so integral to his sound, the way it sustains and sings and soars. So when he strapped on a black Les Paul for a song during the encore, the audience reacted with surprise and interest. He introduced it as a tribute to the great Les Paul, who died not long ago and with whom Beck had a longtime friendship, and played "How High the Moon." It was fascinating to hear the radical difference in tone and feel between the LP and the Strat, how he played it like it was a different instrument entirely - much more staccato, with notes that popped and crackled instead of soaring and searing. A lot of fun to hear this, and he seemed to enjoy the change of pace.<br /><br />All in all he played about an hour and a half, including his interpretations of "People Get Ready" and the Beatles' "A Day in the Life" among many others. Not a Springsteenian marathon show, but not half bad for a guy just a couple days from his 66th birthday, and certainly enough to be satisfying. When I finally made my way out of the venue, the sky was strobing with distant lightning, flickering like busted neon among the tall buildings of downtown Indianapolis. All the way home I was accompanied by near-constant, distant lightning and a hazy, hazy moon. It seemed perfectly appropriate, though I couldn't tell you why.<br /><br />I'll leave you with a video taken by someone else at the show. The still photos above are mine; I took some videos, and you can find them on my YouTube account, but the audio on them is pretty atrocious (my camera's just not built for audio). Enjoy!<br /><br /><object style="background-image: url("http://i2.ytimg.com/vi/UyZIk3Yc_2I/hqdefault.jpg");" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/UyZIk3Yc_2I&hl=en_US&fs=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/UyZIk3Yc_2I&hl=en_US&fs=1" allowscriptaccess="never" allowfullscreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-6250617826445926512010-06-03T21:27:00.003-04:002010-06-03T22:00:52.857-04:00SummerishI've been awakened between 5 and 6 am by thunderstorms the past two mornings. This morning there was so much lightning I almost had a flashback to the strobelights and mirrorballs of the disco era.<br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br />Just sent in the final proofs for my poem forthcoming in <a href="http://www.newmadridjournal.org/index.htm"><span style="font-style: italic;">New Madrid</span></a>. Their staff has been absolutely wonderful to work with; I've had quite a bit of communication from them (mainly from Assistant Managing Editor, Jacque Day) since the initial acceptance, including the opportunity to proofread my contributor's note and my line in the table of contents. I've known exactly where they were in the process all along, I know what day they plan on sending the files to the printer, and I know when to expect the issue in the mail (late July). The level of TLC they've provided has been way above & beyond the call of editorial duty. They'll begin taking submissions again in mid-August, and if you have work that seems right for them, give 'em a try.<br /><br />Also just had a poem accepted by <a href="http://www.hamiltonstone.org/hsr.html"><span style="font-style: italic;">Hamilton Stone Review</span></a> - the email arrived on my birthday, which was kind of lovely. It's been a good submission year for me so far. I think I'm getting better at picking where to send.<br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br />Finally, I just came across <a href="http://www.poetryfoundation.org/archive/poem.html?id=25957">this poem by Stephen Dunn</a>, which I had not read before although it was published back in 1987. It wrecked me a little bit, in a good way. Just gorgeous stuff:<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">...often a sweetness<br /> has come<br />and changed nothing in the world</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">except the way I stumbled through it... </span><br /><br />Seriously. <a href="http://www.poetryfoundation.org/archive/poem.html?id=25957">Go read "Sweetness"</a> and see if it doesn't give you a bit of a shiver.Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-76475145163561258802010-06-02T23:28:00.002-04:002010-06-02T23:53:56.580-04:00OldishWelcome to June. How in the hell did that happen??<br /><br />I spent a few days up at my mom's for Memorial Day weekend and to celebrate the beginning of the one-year countdown to my fiftieth birthday. Fiftieth. How in the hell did THAT happen?? (I mean, it doesn't happen until next year, but... you get the idea.)<br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br />Does anyone have any personal experience (or know anyone who has) with the <a href="http://www.colrainpoetry.com/">Colrain Manuscript Conference</a>? I can't possibly afford it, but it looks like the sort of thing that would fit nicely into a grant application next year. Yeah, I'm thinking ahead.<br /><br />AWP would be another great way to use some grant funds, but I don't know of any grants that would get the money to me in time for that.<br /><br />Of course, right now I'd like a grant to just go and hang out on the beach (preferably one without any nasty oil globs washing up on it... sigh) for a week or two. A winning lottery ticket would do the trick. :)<br /><br />Seriously, though, I am curious about the Colrain thing, so any thoughts on that would be most welcome. Feel free to backchannel if you don't want to post a comment in public. Thanks!Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-69910071073237019172010-05-25T23:16:00.002-04:002010-05-26T00:08:49.500-04:00Poetry & mystery & a bit about TwitterFor a few months now I've been on hiatus from the poetry group I belong to. When I first stepped out, I wasn't writing much at all; now I'm writing again, though a bit slowly - weekends mostly, usually drafting one or two poem(-ish thing)s. I haven't been going back to revise much, and the poems feel a little different to me. Anyway, I've realized that, right now, I just want to trust the poems to do their own thing; I don't want to go back to the group for critique just yet. I don't want to interrogate the poems yet. I don't want someone trying to make sense of them - it feels like "sense" isn't the point of these particular poems, at least not yet. It's a new place for me to be, although in a way it's a lot like where I was with poems back when I first started writing, in my teens.<br /><br />That whole paragraph was more than a little self-indulgent, but that's how it goes sometimes.<br /><br />The new poems seem to be about memory. I say "seem to be" but since one of them is titled "What Memory Is" I guess it's a little more than "seem" huh? It feels like the very beginning stages of a new project(-ish thing). There's the first manuscript, Land Mammal, which has been <span style="font-style: italic;">making the rounds</span> as they say and will probably get revised some more between now and whenever; there's the second one, Chasing Angels, which I seem to have stepped away from for a while but which I'd like to go back to over the summer and pound it into some kind of readable shape; and now there is this new thing. Which may or may not actually be a thing. I'd like to get one of the first two manuscripts accepted somewhere before I push too far on the new thing, just because I can only juggle so many balls at one time... well, we'll see.<br /><br />Memory seems like an appropriate thing for me to be thinking about and writing about these days. I've lived in this town for almost thirty-one years now, and there are a lot of ghosts here. I'm comfortable with most of them but they are still, you know, ghosts. And on Friday I begin the one-year countdown to my fiftieth birthday - which seems crazy to me.<br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br />Don't even know what to say about the awfulness in the Gulf. It's as if someone decided we weren't turning the ocean into toxic sludge quite fast enough, and figured we should speed up the process. And I know it's not going to help at all (especially since my little Corolla only eats about five gallons of gas a week), and I know none of the oil companies are particularly ethical or worthy of support, but I can't bring myself to buy gas from BP now, even though it's the most convenient place for me.<br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br />While I'm busy letting the new poems just sit there and be mysterious, I've been reasonably industrious about sending out the old ones. I'm pleased to note that <span style="font-style: italic;">Rattle </span>took one for their winter issue. I suppose it's self-indulgent to announce acceptances here on this blog, but isn't that what the Internet is for anyway? Well, that and cute kitten pictures.<br /><br />* * * * *<br /><br />Really enjoying Twitter lately. It doesn't replace the extended musings of a blog, or the conversation of real life. It's more kinda like sitting in a room with a bunch of people, all puttering around or reading or watching tv or listening to music or whatever, and occasionally piping up with an observation, which maybe makes a couple of people say "Hmmm, interesting" or tell you about the time that same thing happened to them. And then someone will read you something interesting that they stumbled across, and maybe that will make you go look up something to find out a little more about that something. It's a low-key, ongoing multiple connectedness that appeals to me. Plus, you occasionally get to exchange remarks with people you'd probably never have the chance to chat with in real life, like the great writer <a href="http://www.twitter.com/MargaretAtwood">Margaret Atwood</a>, journalist <a href="http://www.twitter.com/RussertXM_NBC">Luke Russert</a>, or terrific writer/musician <a href="http://www.twitter.com/rosannecash">Rosanne Cash</a> (who has a memoir coming out soonish, and I can't wait to read it). I've gotten a tremendous amount of professional information from the librarians I follow, and I know that if there's any news from the Springsteen world someone will tweet about it. For someone like me who practically has a phobia about "what if something interesting happens in the world and I don't know about it??" (yeah, why do you think I went to library school anyway?) - it's pretty great. Twitter isn't everybody's cup of tea, and that's fine; I'm following as many people as I can manage right now anyway and I don't need more! But it has taken me by surprise to realize it's become an important resource for me, both personally and professionally.Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9089616.post-87075315307606263792010-05-17T22:08:00.004-04:002010-05-18T00:15:24.291-04:00Letting the world intrudeOver the weekend I spent several hours at the mega-chain coffee place near campus (I know, I know... but now that many of the students have left for the summer, it's a pleasant novelty to be able to go there and actually find a seat), reading and writing. And it occurred to me that lately, say for the past couple of years, I've found it much easier to draft poems when I'm somewhere other than home. Looking over the poems I drafted this weekend, I realized why - it's that when I'm out in public, things happen. People walk past, the weather changes, unexpected music comes on the radio. Things I didn't choose and can't control.<br /><br />Allowing those things to drop into the poem when they feel like they belong, without trying to overexplain what they're doing there, is a technique I've been enjoying lately. Sure, I could do it at home, but (despite my cats' best efforts) home is a lot more predictable. I love hearing a snippet of conversation, or a ringtone, or seeing a girl wearing a shiny blouse with butterflies printed all over it - and letting that image fall into the poem. I love letting go of the need for tight control over the poem's arc enough to let unexpected things fall in and shift it. Most of my writing life I've written fairly linearly (is that a word?), this happened and then this happened and then this; or at least, I saw this and it made me think of that. For years and years I kept a tight rein on my poems, tried hard to steer them. (Who me, control freak? Uh...) And I overexplained, that's for sure. Learning to let the world intrude and let unexpected details fall in and just <span style="font-style: italic;">be </span>there has been, I think, a great exercise for me.<br /><br />I was first aware of doing this in Provincetown a few years back - now there's a great place to find some interesting details to fall into your poems! I'll share a poem that was pretty heavily shaped by this kind of attention, which turned out to be one of my favorite writing-process experiences. I started writing it while sitting at a table in the window of the Adams Pharmacy, watching it rain outside, watching cranky wet tourists go by - and then some people with a dog walked by. The dog had his head high, carrying a toy of some sort, looking absolutely and utterly delighted with himself. <span style="font-style: italic;">A dog with treasure in its mouth. </span>And that moment of serendipity & unexpected joy completely changed the direction of the poem as I was writing it.<br /><br />When I left the Adams Pharmacy I had a prose paragraph thingie. Here's an early draft:<br /><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;">There are things that are mine, and things that never will be. You for one, with the wet loam of your gaze turning away. This day, just past the turn of summer, minutes shorter now than yesterday. It’s cliché to say how quickly a life can pass, but on this morning in my forty-fourth year it’s a question I can taste, the salt sweet shore of it. The time we take to turn away when we could be absolutely still. A red car on a rainy day, driving slow on Gosnold Street. A dog with treasure in its mouth. Everything that passes by : I want to wave my arms and make it halt : just hold there for one moment, hold. Weathered blue framed windows, voices saying </span><span style="font-style: italic;font-family:courier new;" >yes</span><span style="font-family:courier new;">, the words that water says. Rain comes down harder, generous, saying </span><span style="font-style: italic;font-family:courier new;" >yes, yes</span><span style="font-family:courier new;"> to the black and shining street.</span><br /><br />I left the pharmacy then, intending to go get some clam chowder at the Lobster Pot for lunch, but they weren't open yet - so I wandered over to the Provincetown Public Library (which I adore) and settled in to work on revising for a while. My hair was damp from the rain and I had to take my rain-spattered glasses off to work, which became <span style="font-style: italic;">I've salt in my eyes, in my hair.</span> I'd briefly picked up Lucille Clifton's <a href="http://www.powells.com/biblio/7-9781880238882-1"><span style="font-style: italic;">Blessing the Boats</span></a> when I first got to the library, and something about the tone of the title poem was resonating in my mind as I worked. Other things in the poem had been poking at my attention for the time I'd been in Provincetown - cormorants, the blue frames around the windows of a B&B across the way from the one where I was staying - and those details found their way into the poem as well. I didn't walk out of the library with the poem in its final form that morning, but it was pretty close, actually.<br /><br />Here's the finished poem as it appeared in my chapbook <span style="font-style: italic;">Breach</span>:<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Hold</span><br /><br />Everything I’ve lost, refused, or left behind<br />comes flooding in like dead things on the tide.<br />What is ever really gone? The name for this light is <span style="font-style: italic;">yes</span>.<br />Drifting ghost nets, lost at sea, entangle the unwary beasts<br />that thrash against the current and the dream<br />and I’ve salt in my eyes, in my hair.<br />There are things that are mine and things<br />that never will be. You for one,<br />with the wet loam of your gaze turning towards home.<br />On this fogged-in morning in my forty-fourth year<br />it’s a question I can taste, the salt sweet shore of it,<br />the time we take to turn away.<br />A red car on a rainy day, driving slow on Gosnold Street,<br />a dog with treasure in its mouth.<br />Everything that passes by: I want to wave my arms,<br />to hold them wide like cormorants’ wings:<br />just hold there for one moment, hold.<br />Weathered blue framed windows, voices saying <span style="font-style: italic;">yes</span>,<br />the words that water says.<br />Rain comes down hard now, generous, saying<br /><span style="font-style: italic;">yes, yes</span> to the distant shore,<br />to the black and shining street.<br /><br />-Anne Haines July 2005Anne Haineshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17038705452206752521noreply@blogger.com2